(Wasn’t I?) Special

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It was here that I fell in love with you
And it was here when my heart got broken in two
I can still see the way you smiled
And how you never saw that I lied
I told you I was happy, but that was untrue
I always pictured it was here that I'd say "I do"

But all that has gone down the drain
Inside, I felt so much pain
For how could she win your heart?
Taking mine, apart
Wasn't I your special one?
I guess that's all said and done
Why choose her when I've been right here?
Didn't you hold me dear?

I wanted to run, I wanted to cry
I wanted to ask you why
Why take me to our special place?
Only to tell me, I've been replaced

© Maria Michaela

For the visually challenged reader, the above image shows a rough track leading to a cottage in the woods. The track is bound on both sides with a wooden fence. There is a layer of snow on the ground.

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This is in response to:

Sadje’s What Do You See #125

Jude’s The Saturday Symphony #26 In Between The Lines

I Think You’re Jealous

I used to think it was just me
Trying too hard to get your attention
But then lately it seems that you’re growing anxious
Whenever I am close to other guys, it seems….
To me it seems you become restless

And then out of the blue it becomes clear
As clear and bright as day
You act the way you do because
You’re starting to feel jealous

I take that as a sign that in some way, you like me

You Get Jealous

Tell me you get jealous

Even just a little

Tell me that you’re wondering

Why he holds my smile now

And not you

Let me know there was that feeling

And there is

Show just a little hint

To give a little hope

A glint in your eyes

 

So show me you get jealous

Too, like I am jealous when I know you’re with her

Je, Je, Jealousy

You do things and say things that make me fall for you

Then you purposely tease me, as if trying to ruin my day and make me blue

I don’t get it, I don’t understand

I’m waiting as if counting a grain of sand

I have no clue

And unsure if I should fall for you

 

So I sing a song

About being hurt and don’t get me wrong

I don’t mean to make you feel like a jerk

But I guess that’s just how it works

You seem to notice so you start to woe

But see since you made me blue

I thought of giving my attention to another

Because I thouht you wouldn’t bother

 

You made me jealous and I did the same

We both ended up being hurt in this game

So let’s start over, clean the slate

A little bit of alone time, a little thing called date

Please don’t make me jealous again because it really hurts

I don’t want to feel like dirt

 

Let’s rid of the green-eyed lady

So we may start going steady

On Being Jealous

This heart knows only one thing and that it’s beating for you

I gave my heart to you long time ago

I knew that one day you’d make it blue

 

Yet no love is perfect, except that of our Almighty

So I did not take back what I gave

Hoping you’d see I’d be your one and only

 

A situation happens leaving me to doubt and hurt

You say one thing and do another

Should I just stop this feeling inside and avert?

 

Your heart for mine is all I want

And now it’s crushed

You try to explain but I don’t wish to listen

My heart has been hurt, it’s now mum and hushed

 

Still you try to explain but when jealousy creeps

It plays a masterful trick

Leaving my body unspoken, shivering and sick

 

Let the pain go away

Better struck dead than slowly be eaten and wasted

by this jealousy from within