His smile
His eyes
The way he looks
The way he walks
Chuckles and talks
All the same.
His lies
His deceit
The hopelessness
The heartaches
They are all the same too.
Somethings never change
But not me, not anymore.
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Category: heartbroken
I used to see colors of different hues
Then I only saw all blues
Clouds once white now heavy gray
I think I’ll sulk here and stay
Love once pure, now it’s stained
Everything lost, nothing gained
Like the love that you gave
It was all just pretend
Nothing we do could ever save
The wilted feelings we felt in the end.
And like the plastic flowers on the table
We couldn’t do anything more than we’re able
….I never knew the sound of his voice
….The sound of his laughter, which could be music or noise
I never knew his likes, dislikes
….His favorite movie or color
….His smell and odor
I never got the chance and I never will
Without a word and without hesitation
Without looking back, he left
Cold, cold night
As cold as ice
As cold as his heart
As cold as my soul
As cold as the glare in our eyes
How and why did we come to this?
We’ve become frozen
Broken
We’ve become our coldest
The days roll in and out
The sun shines bleakly
Ghosts of the past scream!
As if from the abyss, he hears them call
And he sees my gaze,
Dark and deadly.
He knows I’m calculating, formulating
I no longer have pure thoughts
Revenge has clouded my mind
And he knows he should be careful
I loved him then and may love him still
But there is so much more to think and do in this world than be stuck with feelings for him
Feelings unguarded
Feelings unwanted
Feelings unrequited
Still, I entertain thoughts of him
Still, I find myself daydreaming
Still, I recall the hurt
The pain
And so, I realised I still have so much to learn
And he asked,
“Was I just a pawn in your game?
An option?
A second guessed choice?
Just another…..
….just another face?”
He wrote his story in black and white
Told everyone of lies
Because he was afraid they’d know the truth
Convinced himself to walk away
Because he was afraid of my love.
And that’s how his story relates to mine
