Your morning coffee
Your shade on a hot summer’s day
Your dark cloud
Your rainy day
Your raging wave
A heart attack
Your no one
I am and I am not
What am I really to you?
I often hear their stories
Of how falling in love lifted their worries.
They told me I have been missing out
But I hear nothing of this. I don’t hear them shout!
To have someone to call your own, they say
As if you can own a person, I dare say.
Why can’t they see that I am fine on my own?
I am fine being just by myself until my hair is grey and I am nothing but bones.
Will there be someone?
Will there be anyone?
Sitting at the park bench
Alone and rain drenched
I am my own
Always on my own
How difficult it must be to love me
How hard it must be not to be noticed
To be put aside
Like I’ve done to so many
And yet, I do not feel the loneliness
Either I am numb or just happy to be without anyone
I hope to fall in love someday
To someone who I can talk about everything
To someone I can trust
To someone who can love me for a lifetime
To someone who will only love me more
I am someone’s no one
I am someone’s someone
And I am also someone’s everything
And something altogether
Is anyone there?
Can anyone here me out there?
Does anyone know I’m here
Or that I even exist?
Sometimes we just need a someone
Specially when it feels like no one
Is on our side
And sometimes when I get lonely
I imagine being with my one and only
And wonder, what if I too had a someone
She dyed her hair black to be amongst many
She kept her mouth shut so no one would see
She kept her head still so no one could hear
She wanted to fit in.
She asks herself why people have to be so self centered
Why people care too much of how they look
Couldn’t they just look into what really matters,
Like the heart and the soul?
Why do we get caught up with ourselves?
Why is it so hard to be just herself?
Why did she have to change?
So she tries to fit in amongst the sea of everyone
Where she once was a someone
She’ll ultimately become a no one.
I could tell you everything
I could give my world
I could do anything
Like make ribbons of rainbows that twirled.
I could be riding a shooting star
Travel the galaxy
Yes! I could go far
Without making it a fallacy.
I could bend and break you
Make you bleed and beg for more
I could turn you black and blue
You won’t even get a score.
I could conjure butterflies out of thin air
I could smile sweetly
But you won’t get a share
No, you will regret me.
See I could be the love that you think I am
I could be your dream
But you don’t see that I’m a sham
See I’ve got some scheme.
I’d could be with someone but I prefer to be alone
Because I choose not to be a queen in some elses throne.