No crickets serenading
No dogs howling
Even the clouds seem to be still.
The moon left the sky, leaving it bare
The stars don’t sparkle as much
They’re not dancing tonight.
No cats meowing
No frogs croaking
The night is still.
When I finally let you go
I found peace of mind.
I found a peace within me where once there were numerous questions.
My tears have found peace
And most tears I cry now are for joy.
Where I used to have a knot for fear of not being with you,
I am now able to breathe easily.
I found peace the moment I let you go.
When I realised you were the chaos
I was able to appreciate the silence.
I am now at peace with myself
And you are now just a lesson on an old page in my book.
I hear people scream
I’m in panic
Where am I?
I don’t understand what’s going on
I cover my ears to grasp silence
And when I open my eyes
I find that I am nowhere
I stay in my room where I’m safe
I stay there to have space and time for myself
Time for myself.
I used to breathe around the house
And just be still in the silence and rudimentary life.
Now I stay in my room trying to keep the noise out
Drown it all down.
So I stay in my room
The only place I feel safe.
I used to see beauty and color in everything
Used to hear music and the joy it brings
I talked about the lovely moon
The song of the stars and so on
But they shamed me
Condemned my poetic dreams
So all of a sudden and all at once, I became mum
Now in the silence, they reach out for me
But I am gone, nowhere to be
They will hear no more
I am mum from them, forever
They feared all this. She thought she was too dark to handle
To love from afar
To choose to be unknown
To remain silent about one’s love for another
Is a curse on its own
In the morning I awake
Before the sun even breaks
I take the moment, I take the silence
I take pleasure in the absence
Of the noise and the fast paced world
Of the toss and turn where my visiobn becomes blurred
I take each moment that I am alone
Because it is when I am alone, I feel whole
The eyes says it all
Window of one’s soul
Shows the real emotion
Shows no lie
Gives away many
And speaks louder when silence prevails