Posted in original, self / self esteem

Hide

Cover my face

My body

My pride

I have nothing to show

And everything to hide.

My insecurities eat me up

I see all my negativities, magnified.

I try to be more body positive

But the hurt and teasing from the past

Have scarred me to the core

And so I hide

Shameful of how I look

Posted in original, self / self esteem

Dictated Beauty 

I want to cry, I want to hide

I want to be where I’m alone

Where no one can hurt me

The media, the TV, they tell and show you things of what beauty should be

And I am a fool enough to believe them

I am blinded

I do not see myself.
I try to fit in but I just can’t

Or maybe I never wanted to

But it hurts when you try to stand up for yourself

While their boots of shaming are keeping you to the ground.
So I wish for days of alone time

With no one to tell me I’m not worth it

I try and heal the scars before they start creating new one’s again.

Posted in original, Relationship

Sayang (What A Shame)

Sabi nila ako ay sayang

Talagang nakakapanghinayang.

Sayang kasi raw ako ay maganda

Walang boyfriend at hindi pa nag-aasawa.

Ano ang hinihintay ko?

Naghihintay ba ng milagro?

Sayang nga ba ang isang dalaga

Na walang irog ngunit masaya?

Sayang nga ba talaga ang tawag sa isang taong katulad ko?

Sayang ba dahil hindi ako katulad niya, hindi katulad mo?

Hindi ako takot mag-isa at hindi ko nakikita kung saan ang sayang

Sayang lang na hindi ninyo nakikita na ako ay masaya at hindi nanghihinayang.

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They say it’s a shame,

A shame and regretful.

A shame because they say I have a pretty face

But no boyfriend and not even marrying.

What am I waiting for?

Am I waiting for a miracle?

But is it really a shame that a girl such as I is still single

Single but blissful and happy?

Is it really such a shame for a person such as I?

A shame because I’m different from them, from you?

I’m not afraid to be alone and I don’t see any shame in that

It is a shame that you don’t see that I am happy and with no regrets