I took out the stars for you
Pulled them close so you could hold on to them,
See their beauty up close.
Let the light shine upon that rugged face
Feel the warmth of their light and let it be your guide.
You belong with the stars, love
So don’t forget to shine.
If you close your eyes
You will see more
More of the reality that you’ve been missing
Look at the mirror
See a face
Sometimes I see the reflection of the real me
She hides so far away that she’s out of reach
I’ve seen that look before
The look of excitement
The look of first time seeing something so beautiful and captivating
The way I look at the stars despite seeing them every day
I am nowhere and so are you
My thoughts are everywhere but not on you
We crossed paths but never looked or saw each other
But not truly seeing
You ponder but not about me
Our sights crossed
And then we looked away at the possibility
It’s not funny
I’m self conscious…all the time
I look at the mirror
Try to cheer myself up
Gain the confidence
But it gets depleted with each people who look at me funny.
The skinny can easily find clothes that fit
The heavy….well, we often struggle
My self esteem has left years ago
So I curl up on my bed
And hide in my room
I see light in the dark
I see it clearly when I close my eyes
I see when others don’t
Because I believe
It took me by surprise
And then I realized
The moon has always been so beautiful
Though the eyes of a lover might think it more wonderful
The sky is bluer
The grass greener
But it’s always been so.
It’s a matter of choosing what to see
I saw him
Way over there
Making his way
Walking towards me
I was half expecting he would look up
Maybe wave at me,
Or even just smile at me
But he didn’t
He just kept walking
He stopped and gave me a hug
And that was fine too
I looked in his eyes and saw reflections of me
Does he understand? Does he truly see?
What we could be
I and he.
I say I love him, I said it shamelessly
I feel light, I feel free
His eyes seem to smile happily.
His mouth parted as if he was about to say something
Then I woke up hearing my own heart breaking.