Posted in original, Relationship

The Idea

And on he went by telling me that he has fallen for me

I ask him why, what made him look my way

He says the mystery of me is a curious thing for him

So I say,

“You are not in love with me.

You are in love with the idea of me.

Of the what could be, what will be, what you and I could do,

Or would do. Of the idea that I could be it, the one, the lifetime.

You are in love with the future that has yet to unfold, which most girls might like

However,

That is not what I see.

I see the now, the boy who has no idea of what he truly wants.

The boy aimlessly moving along and bringing along whatever he is attracted to.

I see a boy lost in the fairytales hoping the princess would come and save him from loneliness.

That is not what I want.

I want a man who can stand on his own

Who agrees to disagree with me

Whose idea is like and unlike my own and respects it

A man who battles with me, for me, and will stand by me

A man who has sense and intelligence and emotion.

You may not see the difference”, I said to him.

“Because you are a boy who still has yet to grasp the idea of what it is to be a man.”

Posted in life, original, Relationship

It’s My Choice

I am hard to understand, so better not try to

Not many can see what I can

I am considered a freak of society 

Because I choose to be single

At an age that many are already settled.
My being settled is different from most

And I know it’s hard to comprehend

My relationship status is not bounded or dictated by society

It’s just what I choose

I choose me

And others fail to see that.

Posted in original, Relationship

About Being Single

Every single day they tell me

Tease me

And sometimes it hurts me

Because a single word can be hurtful 

When every single time you are told

As if you do not feel a single emotion 

As if you are not smart enough to understand 

Because they think being single is a disappointment 

When truth is, their single mindedness 

Is the real problem

Posted in love, original

A Someone

Sometimes we just need a someone

Specially when it feels like no one

Is on our side
And sometimes when I get lonely

I imagine being with my one and only

And wonder, what if I too had a someone

Posted in heartbroken, love, original, Relationship

A Lot Better Alone

Love me on a Sunday
Leave me on a Monday
Break my heart before night falls

Hold me on a Tuesday
Let me cry my eyes out

Promise me the world
On a lovely Wednesday night
Tell me this will never end

Let’s make it through a Thursday
Without any heartbreaks
Spend a quite day under the sun

By Friday I will realize this could not last
So I will let you go
And by Saturday, while I may be alone
I will be a lot better without you

Posted in miscellaneous, original

Single Blissfulness

I admit
It can be lonely, sometimes
Specially when you’ve been waiting
When at one point he would be it but isn’t after all
When you were so ready
Yet it wasn’t meant to be

You ask what’s wrong with yourself
Then you look at all the blessings you have
And say you’re happy and contented

But I guess you really come to a point
When you feel lonely
And wish that whoever he is
Comes soon

Then there’s someone with great potential
Has almost all the things you like and sometimes even more
You can’t help but slowly grow closer
But the catch is
That person has a significant other
Not married but somehow committed

So you float along
Back to the beginning
From where it started
And try to find that happiness of being without a significant other

Posted in self / self esteem

Unworthiness

Unworthy!
Am I unworthy to be something more?
I feel rejected,
Unlovable,
Unacceptable,
Not good enough,

Some say I’m much of a goody two shoes
Too good to be true
Funny and one of the guys
It’s a compliment, I know
But that’s all I’ll ever be
Maybe that’s all I am

Bow down to my unworthiness!