I don’t miss waking up early to get to work
But I miss going to work and seeing workmates who are now like family.
I don’t miss the traffic and the time spent confined in a jeepney for many hours just to get home
But I miss being able to go out anywhere at almost any time.
I don’t miss the over crowded places
But I miss the crowd of friends and families getting together.
I definitely don’t miss the pollution and would prefer going out to inhale a fresher air.
That was the old world,
Just some months ago.
I sat at the dining room, working on overtime
I typed away to get the work done.
Then, a light came through from the outside
Illuminating the darkened space.
The sunlight coming through the window
And I thought, how beautiful it was.
On the inside looking out. Loving their freedom and energy. Sometimes I crave it. But also fear it.
“Put yourself out there”, they would say. I automatically think of being put on display for everyone to scrutinize, to look at. But I don’t want attention. I just want to be seen, heard. There’s a difference.
So, despite the fear I took the step and opened the door. Doing my best to be ready to take on the unknown.
They judge me
They tell me I’ve never truly felt love
Or been in love
But how would they know?
The dim witted often think they’re smart
They will never understand
And I won’t care
Because I know,
Heartbreak is all I’ve ever had
She needed to change
She could feel it
It was a necessity
So she let it
Her brown hair, was slowly becoming black
Her eyes, more brown than anyone could ever dream of
Deep inside she’s the same
And so her chestnut is no more
Her transformation, complete
She is now known as the girl with jet black hair
I’m the one who’s always on the other side of town
Never the one chased
Always the one chasing
I’ve been feeling pathetic lately
I feel sorry for myself
I try to pick myself up
And I know, I know better
I can be happy in my own
But why do I feel so empty?
I feel I don’t belong
I wonder where I will be
Sometimes I just want to be alone
Because solitude is my best friend
It always has
And always will be
………Wards back, around turn
flop flip, top tiP………
……..Down upside, turvey topsy
out inside, ground bacK……..
……..Body every, night mid
times some, skirts ouT…….
……..Ship relation, stairs down
garten kinder, sheets worK……..