Not all girls have curvy body
Not all girls are tall
Not all girls are sexy slim
Most girls don’t have it all.
Not all girls are unruly but also
Not all girls are prim and proper
Not all girls like frilly things
Not all girls are makeup lovers.
Not all girls receive equal opportunity
Not all girls have their voices heard
But some girls are rising up now
And will not be deterred.
I cried in silence
I didn’t want anyone to know.
Not that no one cared
I just thought they wouldn’t understand.
They may think I’m fickle
They may think I just want to be noticed.
So I say nothing
Pretend I’m fine
Fake a smile
And laugh a lie
But I’m broken and I know I need to fix myself
You can charm other girls with that sly smile
But not me
Tell them your jokes and they laugh mindlessly
But not me
They may fall for all your tricks
But me, no never
There were no words to speak
Nothing left to say
All was said
All was done
I’m fine, is what I say even when I’m not
I’m fine, even when I feel like screaming my lungs out
I’m fine even when you see I’m not
I’m fine, even when I’m dragging myself
Even when I know I’m not
I couldn’t love him for all the love he could give
I could not give him what he wanted
Or longed for
It’s hard to explain
I couldn’t love him for any and all reason
I do not hate him
I simply couldn’t
And just refused to
I matter not to you
You see me come and go
And it’s all right that I am blue
Because I matter not to you
I am no one, not anyone and so
It’s okay that you say “no”
Even if I hurt, yes, I hurt too
Still, I matter not to you
Courted by few
Loved by many
It’s not as easy
Not how they see me.
I choose none because the one I choose
Prefers to choose another
So I remain as I was
And choose none
Rather than the wrong one
I no longer have the time
I no longer have the passion
I am not the same person
I’ve lost the zest
What would one do if you no longer have the drive?
It wasn’t for me, was it?
The look, the stare, the smile
It was just your usual
It wasn’t meant to be special
Not meant to make me feel special.
Your laugh, it wasn’t for me
Your stories weren’t for me
Your feelings were just friendly
And it was never meant for me