I couldn’t love you for it would be a lie
I couldn’t let you wait on me or let you say you’d rather die
Than be alone and without me.
For what you felt for me was never love, not at all
It was infatuation and wanting, no, not love at all.
To hold your breath if I told you to
That would have been too much power I’d hold over you.
You were wrong for me for I never wanted or liked you
And I truly am sorry for I could never learn to love you.
I couldn’t love him for all the love he could give
I could not give him what he wanted
Or longed for
It’s hard to explain
I couldn’t love him for any and all reason
I do not hate him
I simply couldn’t
And just refused to
I loved him
But we weren’t meant to be more than what we were
We had to part ways
And intersections we come across
A smile, familiarity
Friendliness and happiness
I was sad when we couldn’t be
But now, I could never be happier
I’ve fallen for someone beyond my reach
I am non existent to him
I know better and should practice what I preach.
But how do you get over someone who was never yours?
The craziness within is slowly taking its course.
I sing his songs and see his face, imagining things that would never be
I know it is crazy,
I know this will go away……eventually
For now, I will let my imagination run wild until I am set free
It wasn’t for me, was it?
The look, the stare, the smile
It was just your usual
It wasn’t meant to be special
Not meant to make me feel special.
Your laugh, it wasn’t for me
Your stories weren’t for me
Your feelings were just friendly
And it was never meant for me
Hi, goodbye love
Hello, farewell my sweet
Hey, so long potential lover
You were never mine
I know you never will be
I still go on
I still try and I still push myself
I don’t want to give up
Nope, not yet, never
I go on
How it feels to wake up with your soul mate
The warmth of that person’s smile
Their long embrace.
I will never know and will never meet him
Perhaps it was never meant to be