The life you lived was exciting
Your energy was fascinating.
Your voice was one of a kind
Not easily duplicated, not easy to find.
And then there were the sad times
The lows came like waves
You struggled, didn’t you?
Despite everything, you felt lonely still.
But you found your way
Before you went away
And even when it’s been many years since,
The memory of you will live forever.
It must be exhausting being you
Always on the spotlight
Never able to hide from the world.
It must be awful being you
Not able to decide for yourself, not really
Always being told what to do
Because that is the price you pay in exchange for the fame they give you.
It must be cruel in the world you’re living
Because no smile or kindness shows on you
It must be hard to pretend it’s all perfect
When deep down you’re struggling to breathe and break free.
I feared the night and screamed at the daybreak
I knew no happiness
And was never contented
I drained myself of love and emotions
I was chaotic
Close to insanity
The world was crowded
The good was never rewarded!
I did all that but never really lived
In truth, I was pronounced dead everyday
I sing the blues
I drink til two
I laugh out loud
To cover the sadness with a fluffy cloud
I smile to cover the tears I cry
Because they don’t know, slowly inside I die
To lift the spirit and start the day right
I turn on the music then I feel alright.
Music gives meaning, gives life
Melts all the struggles and the strife.
And so I let the music engulf me
If my life were taken today,
I wonder what you would say?
Would you tell me you love me?
Or would you say you were just being friendly?
Would you cry and hold me until my last breath?
Will you be sad because of my death?
If I died today, is there anything you’d like to say?
You’ve murdered me and I am spent
The police would not know, they came by and went
They wouldn’t know, no one could tell
No one heard the cries, screams or yell
No evidence they can find to show you’re guilty
Because they look at me and say I’m fine and healthy
No stab wounds to show
No blood stains in the dark that glow
No bullet hole, no gun, no weapon at all
Because the way you murdered me, was to make me fall
I am now without a heart
And I can only hope you wouldn’t tear it apart
Because whether you admit or not
You are guilty for making me like you a lot
How it feels to wake up with your soul mate
The warmth of that person’s smile
Their long embrace.
I will never know and will never meet him
Perhaps it was never meant to be
What tomorrow holds? I will never know
I’ve learned to live in the present
Make the most of today
Learn the lessons and do better the next time
When you feel like giving up
Like the world is falling apart
Like the rain will drown you
And you’re afraid to go back to the start
Lift your head and see the sun
Behind the clouds, behind the rain
Each day is new and another day to start fresh
You’ve got a lot to lose but more to gain
Live each day and live in the present
The past us done and the tomorrow is yet to come
You can do it, I know you can
Do not be afraid and live…just live