Dance With Wolves

I’ve learned to dance with wolves

I’ve learned to live with them

They surround me often

Waiting to pounce

Waiting for the moment I let my guard down

They come around still

Pretending to be tame

Pretending to be innocent

But I know

I’ve learned

I am not their prey

Because I know them

And that is why they now fear me

– Maria Michaela

Hard Lesson

What was I to you?

What was it you wanted of me?

Did you want me to be more?

Did you want to be more?

.

You go on lying

I know you’re faking

My heart is aching

The sight of you haunts me

Like a never ending nightmare

.

Those tortured months I died inside

And you just let me

And now I know to be more careful and to read between each lines

The Idea

And on he went by telling me that he has fallen for me

I ask him why, what made him look my way

He says the mystery of me is a curious thing for him

So I say,

“You are not in love with me.

You are in love with the idea of me.

Of the what could be, what will be, what you and I could do,

Or would do. Of the idea that I could be it, the one, the lifetime.

You are in love with the future that has yet to unfold, which most girls might like

However,

That is not what I see.

I see the now, the boy who has no idea of what he truly wants.

The boy aimlessly moving along and bringing along whatever he is attracted to.

I see a boy lost in the fairytales hoping the princess would come and save him from loneliness.

That is not what I want.

I want a man who can stand on his own

Who agrees to disagree with me

Whose idea is like and unlike my own and respects it

A man who battles with me, for me, and will stand by me

A man who has sense and intelligence and emotion.

You may not see the difference”, I said to him.

“Because you are a boy who still has yet to grasp the idea of what it is to be a man.”

Who Did You Love?

Before it broke who did you give it to?

Who was it that left it black and blue?

Who stole your precious heart,

Only to tear it apart?

Who was this person, whom you thought was the one?

Who was it that suddenly left, suddenly gone?

Who was it that you loved?

The one you gave the stars above?

Who was it that taught you a lesson?

That taught you to love, is all the right reason

Life And World

I knew, I too

I wondered and pondered

I loved, fell but got back aboved

I stopped and went, almost got broken and bent

But I went on as did the world

Wide Eyed

Wide eyed, I wondered and dreamed and schemed

I came up with rainbows and unicorns and leprechauns 

I smiled and cried and explored

I did things made up of crayons and imaginations 

I continued to explore and be wide eyed with the world