Posted in love, original

Insanely Insane 

He took me by surprise

There was playfulness in his eyes

I didn’t know then

I didn’t know when

I had no clue

Didn’t know what to do

My heart was pounding, my mind all scrambled 

I was all over, didn’t speak but rambled

It was crazy, I was over the galaxy!

All because of him, but it was just back then

Posted in miscellaneous, original

Is This Insanity?

They talk all at once
No silence in my head
Leave me be
Leave me to sleep in my bed

People take no notice
While I am paralyzed
Numb by the voices
No one has realized

I hold on to what’s left
If there still is anything
I slip further away it seems
I know what’s left is close to nothing

I am….losing myself

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!!Mental

Didn’t know what to do what was I thinking?

No, I…I wasn’t thinking at all

something told me, whispered to my ear

what is this? what have I done?

Where is here and when is now?

I’ve been loosing time

can’t recall what happened  

He calls…from a distance

…don’t know who he is

A dark passage, voices so many voices

talking at the same time

Some taunt, some laugh, some cry one…

one voice tells me to run

What have I done? What did I do?

“RUN!”, the voice said

I do not recall anything

Where is here and when is now?  

Something slimy and warm

runs from my arm to my hands

what is this? where am I?

what have I done?

A person, laying like crumpled paper

vision so vivid,

passing and playing in my mind…

my mind like a movie, a silent movie

What is this I’m holding?

help me! someone, please!

I’m shaking, I close my eyes

where am I? what have I done?

“RUN! RUN!”, that voice again, the voice I hear  

a dark, deep voice is talking now

silencing the voice that’s been….. telling me to run

A laugh, a scary, cold laugh I look around

…where’s the voice?

where are these voices coming from?  

I hear…I hear someone speak

I spin around and face the mirror

 to my surprise, my lips move

a voice came, that was not my own

“YOU!”, it said…”we are coming from YOU”  

I am lost…I cannot be saved

 …..not anymore

Posted in life, original

Keep Me Sane

I THINK I’M GOING CRAZY

I CAN’T TAKE MUCH MORE

THIS WORLD IS FULL OF CHAOS

WHAT IS THERE TO LIVE FOR?

WE PRIDE OUR SELVES FOR LYING

WE PRIDE OURSELVES FOR CHEATING

WE PRIDE OURSELVES FOR MAKING OTHERS FEEL BAD

AND FEEL TRIUMPHANT WHEN THEY’RE SAD

I THINK I’M GOING CRAZY

I CANNOT TAKE MUCH MORE

THE DECEIT, THE CORRUPTION

HAS BECOME A DAILY CHORE

WE STRUGGLE FOR PERFECTION

WHEN THERE IS NO SUCH THING

WE START A REVOLUTION

AND DEATH IS WHAT IT BRINGS

I THINK I’M GOING CRAZY

AND I CAN’T TAKE MUCH MORE

WHEN HOPE AND FAITH FOR A BETTER FUTURE

HAS GOT PEOPLE THINKING IT’S A BORE

WHY WORRY FOR TOMORROW

WHEN WE CAN’T EVEN HANDLE TODAY?

WE’LL ONLY ENCOUNTER SORROW

AND END UP IN DISMAY

I THINK I’M GOING CRAZY

OR MAYBE IT’S JUST ME

OUR WORLD IS SO MUCH DARKER

THAN WHAT IT USED TO BE

THE COLORS SEEM TO SLOWLY FADE

AND BIRDS DON’T SING AS MUCH

THE RAIN POURS MORE HEAVILY

AND SEAS LOST THEIR GENTLE TOUCH

I THINK I’M GOING CRAZY

AS I CAN NO LONGER BEAR

TO SEE WHAT USED TO BE SO LOVELY

FALL INTO DESPAIR