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Hello Out There

On the inside looking out. Loving their freedom and energy. Sometimes I crave it. But also fear it.

“Put yourself out there”, they would say. I automatically think of being put on display for everyone to scrutinize, to look at. But I don’t want attention. I just want to be seen, heard. There’s a difference.

So, despite the fear I took the step and opened the door. Doing my best to be ready to take on the unknown.

©Maria Michaela

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My Brain Is Not IN Today

I lost my brain today and I mean literally

It’s not “in there” where it’s supposed to be.

I should just say that it is out

But I can’t think straight for a brain I am without.

 

I don’t know why or how or even when

All I know was IT was there back then.

Somehow it walked out from me

Now I’m wondering where it could be.

 

If you perchance to meet it along your way

Kindly tell it to go home and tell it to stay.

I’m not feeling well, I am out of my wits! Dare I say

Since my brain is not in today

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In Paradise

I took a train and rode off

away from the sadness, pain and suffering

all night we went on, passing city to city

 

my heart grew weary of the home I used to know

yet excited to arrive at a place eternal

home, where I will be…..soon

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Calling In Sick

I wanted to work today

but dizziness struck me

worse of all, loose bowel movement

came a knockin’ at my door

I had no choice but to call in sick

and let them know I won’t be around

 

spent the entire day at the hospital

rehydrated and much better

still I’d have to call in again tomorrow

as I’m advised to rest

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Into

into the deep I saw the light

the one that shines brighter than moonshine

towards the tunnel was a road

enveloped with misery and uncertainty

yet into the darkness I saw hope

where all else around me was none

towards salvation or whatever it held

I went and held my breath

 

into the unknown I venture

not knowing what lies beneath or ahead

I crossed the bridge of sorrow

and into the abyss I melted

still I came out unscathed

I held it all in, ’til my last breath I’ve breathed

and I see past it all

the thing that others don’t

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In Between, In Limbo

I sense the grass, a soft musk of tree bark , the scornful dirt of mud

I’m wide awake yet half asleep, in limbo so it would seem

I hear crickets and bullfrogs in unison like a choir singing in the distance

Some voices seem to call me, yet I know not from where

I see nothing, no light whatsoever

My feet touches the ground; soft, grassy and I smell the ocean

I hear the rain coming, its earthly odor coming with it

I hear the droplets and feel the ripples

Still somewhere in the distance, I hear someone call

I walk, no perhaps I float, into the depths

to somewhere I have no idea where

I see!

I see people for a moment and then they’re gone

Everything is a blur, the sounds muffled ; unable to hear clearly

I sense calmness, peace, relaxation

No fear or anger, no negativity

At peace, I am

at peace

Something pulls me back, pulls me in

I hear the rumbling thunder as if searching for me

For some strange reason, I feel the need to look back, to stop

The air is cool, my skin seems tight

Then……

I see a face, unfamiliar

The man then sighs and yells,

“It’s a miracle!”

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One In A Million

Life’s not perfect,

your failures are greater than your achievements

but that’s alright.

What matters is how many times you get up and try again

Even super heroes aren’t perfect,

they too have their weaknesses, struggles and lows

You look at yourself in the mirror

you see an ordinary person.

no matter how ordinary you may seem to yourself,

you’re extraordinary to someone else.

You’re someone’s inspiration,

and they love your uniqueness

Don’t let the haters get you down

there tend to be many of them.

Look instead to those who love you true

the times you got up and kept fighting

you are worth keeping,

worth waiting

truly one in a million

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His Heart In A Box

I found his heart and kept it in a box

didn’t thought of sharing it

for I’d like to keep it as my own

 

I kept it hidden with lock and key

and stow it away for the winter

 

He kept silent, he kept still

to pieces his heart was, to pieces it was

Like a puzzle, I pieced it one by one

stood up all night to get it mended

It sobbed, it cried and wailed

it was hurting

 

Warmth, heat, security, affection,

care,  belief, hope, hug, smile….love

 

To his heart I gave,

to his heart I surrendered

until mine crumbled and was left

with nothing

 

I mended his heart and in return

in return he broke mine

crushed, crumpled, mangled

into bits, into pieces so small it’s microscopic

 

And so it was,

I kept his heart