I stepped on the weighting scale and I looked up
Afraid of what I’ll see when I look down as the weight may not have dropped.
I crossed my fingers and even my toes
Hoping to end a bit of my woes.
Slowly I looked down, praying the scale would be good to me
I gained the confidence
And then I lost it
Lost the weight but gained it again
Lost the hope that it took too long to get
I’ve lost my mind which I hoped to save
Shed those extra pounds
Let’s do it all again
You did it before
You can do it once more
Move your butt and feet
Get going and never admit defeat!
Go on, just lose it
The pounds, the kilos
The numbers show me and they do not lie
When I saw the numbers, I could almost die.
The scale it taunts me
Told me of the truth and of my fault
So my guilt starts to rise
I could either change fate or meet my demise.
Will I ever lose the pounds I gained?
I’m drifting to isolation again
Confidence gained is now confidence lost
And I have but myself to blame the most
Spare me the sweet talk and tell me straight
That I’ve once again gained weight
Slimming and slender and beautiful
That’s what they often say
Fatter, chubby and heavy
Do I vhange to please them?
Or do I change for my own sake?
The line is thin
Where do I go? What do I do?
I keep on gaining but not shedding
Do I let this define me?
I count the calories
I weigh the scale
I am becoming more and more obsess
I know I have to control this
I know there is a limit
But to achieve what has never been, I have to do this
I fall into the pit
The one I did not want to fall into
It is a decision I made
No backimg out now
No end, not until the goal is met
I ate the chocolate fudge
And I did not even budge
Not even once
I drank the tea
And what do I see
Healthier, fitter, better me
They said I couldn’t
I said I can
They told me I shouldn’t
I told them I am
To meet the goal at hand
I didn’t just sit and stand
I took action and took time
Losing weight, is never a crime
To gain something is good
To gain weight isn’t
Unless skin and bones and bones and skin
You take control and lose it all
Only to gain it all back in a matter of seconds
Sometimes you gain more
Such trouble it has caused
But I take control
I refuse to gain it all back
I lost them and lost they shall remain
To gain confidence is the goal
And it shall be