I loved him then and may love him still
But there is so much more to think and do in this world than be stuck with feelings for him
Still, I entertain thoughts of him
Still, I find myself daydreaming
Still, I recall the hurt
And so, I realised I still have so much to learn
You were her first heartbreak
But then why does your heart ache?
You made her cry
She felt she might die
But something is gnawing in your mind
You wished you were more kind
Because although you broke her heart
You knew she would break you from the start
So you broker her and now you’re broken too
I tried to please him
Tried to be the one so he would stop searching
But I wasn’t what he was looking for
So he moved past me.
I guess I tried too hard
I guess I just wasn’t the right fit
I look back now and though I may not understand as much
I don’t regret having fallen for him once
He knew my name
And spoke it well
And for all the times we spent together
I’m the only one that fell.
Though the feel is great
It’s such a shame
I felt too much for him
But he only knows my name.
You know I was beginning to like you,
A little at first
Then it grew, well just a little.
Then you started to be distant,
A little at first and then some more.
Part of me hoped you were going to be it,
Part of me died when I found out you weren’t.
You see, no matter how little it was that I felt for you
I felt something anyway.
It was locked,
Under lock and key and strict supervision.
It had been a while since it last came out
Careful handling is needed
But when I saw you, I then felt it
And it was then that I threw it all away
“I feel fine”, is what I always say
But most often, I’m really not
I feel fine, physically I do
Emotionally though, I’m really not
I feel fine, I don’t show the hurt
But I know soon I really will
I feel fine, that’s what I always say
Even when in truth I’m not
Like time, broken
Like words for the dumb
Somehow missing you
Memories, kept like a token
My eyes never show, left unspoken
Much like the weather is cold
Your feelings for me is a bluff, so my card I fold
Thunderstorms remind me of the emotions I used to feel for you
Strong, loud, proud, and sure
Then came the rains
It too was strong and it overflowed
It hurt, it burned
But I never blamed you
I never felt any bitterness
Like thunderstorms, I was glad though a little sad
That’s how I felt for you before
I don’t hold my breath when you’re around
Though your presence has always been the most wonderful sound.
I don’t feel butterflies at all
But your presence alone makes me feel ten times tall!
I don’t feel my heart skip a beat
But hearing your voice is a feeling so sweet.
I don’t think I’m in love with you, no, not yet
But maybe in the future, I think, I bet