I Shouldn’t Have

I should have run away when I had the chance
I shouldn’t have taken a single glance
I should have walked away when I could
I should have shut the door when I knew I would
I would fall again and just end up hurt once more
I should have learned my lesson as I fell to the floor
It’s typical of me to fall and run away
But I clearly shouldn’t have chosen you, now look at me today
I’m black and blue all over as I beat myself up
Deciding whether to go on or give up
But I know one thing for sure
I shouldn’t have fallen for you because there is no cure

I’m scared

Of falling again
Of maybe falling
And getting hurt

Of stumbling
Of cartwheeling

I want to get it right this time
But I can’t get my head straight

I am afraid
But more afraid of ignoring it

Feeling Like A Poet

The drops of rain are so fine that from afar
You’d think it’s a mist, a fog.
No snow has ever fallen here but this is the closest thing
we got.

The rain is soothing, calming
The bed weather is making lazy almost everyone
As for me, it makes me feel like being poetic about it

I fell in love…

…but that was before.
I thought it would not end,
I thought it was for sure.

But that was before
I do not regret it,
I feel no bitterness,
I feel free now.

Free to know myself more,
Free to be myself,
Free to just be.

I may fall in love again someday
But not soon
Not yet
Not now

I may be on the verge of falling again

But I know better than to be in a hurry
I’d like to take it slow this time
I’d like to know me more.

I’d like not to assume so much
Or try and over think things.
I’d like to see if I can truly gauge
The feelings of the opposite.

No butterflies yet and I know better than to expect it now
But if he can be the one, then why not?
Maybe he is….but most likely, he isn’t

Maria Michaela

There’s something about you and me

That just can’t be
I may tend to try
And check on you like a spy
But I hold my tongue
I’ve heard this being sung
My imagination is running wild again
So I stop myself, before I could even begin

Maria Michaela