I wish they could see my tears,
I wish they could come face to face with my fears.
I wish they knew how it truly hurts,
So mean words they wouldn’t blurt.
I wish they’d know I’m dying inside,
And see past the smile shown outside.
I wish they’d know how much I hate myself….
….so they will stop
I wish they’d just stop!
I’ve learned to dance with wolves
I’ve learned to live with them
They surround me often
Waiting to pounce
Waiting for the moment I let my guard down
They come around still
Pretending to be tame
Pretending to be innocent
But I know
I am not their prey
Because I know them
And that is why they now fear me
– Maria Michaela
One, two, three
You will no longer scare me.
Four, five, six
I’m picking up all my sticks.
Seven, eight, nine
I know I can do this and I’ll do just fine.
Ten is where I stop and tell Fear,
“You no longer have a hold on me, you hear!”
I would like to spread my wings
Conquer my fears and limitations
Stretch and fly
..when people say it so clear?
What I can only sense is fear
That’s not what I want, my dear
How is it that I can’t feel
What is fake from what is real?
I don’t understand, what’s the deal?
I’m not making sense, not at all
I feel so tired, so I’m just going to fall
Of falling again
Of maybe falling
And getting hurt
I want to get it right this time
But I can’t get my head straight
I am afraid
But more afraid of ignoring it
Time to let go
Close your eyes
Hold your breath
Take the leap
Leave your fears behind
I am mountain strong
I stand like trees tall
I do not cower in fear
Fear hides from me
One can only tolerate so much
Even if he hides within their bunch
He knows he can’t take much of the punches
The strong can only hold out for so long
When he bends and breaks
And loses all senses
He is lost, a rogue
A shadow of what once was
I will not let him break
I will mend him
I will do whatever it takes
For no one should face this alone
I worry a lot
It darkens my day and ruins my mood
Dark clouds follow all the time
And I feel I am at my lowest
Worrying is an awful thing
My balance is off
And I lose trust
Thank goodness for real friends
One’s who let you see the brighter side
One’s who show you the other view
And it can be so spectacular!
I worry a lot
But I keep in mind the lesson I learned
Uncertainty breeds fear
But fear has no hold on me now
So, I ride the bike once more
and enjoy the view