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Smaller Frame

And so I came to realize that people with smaller size, smaller frame

Gets the praise, popularity and fame

They always seem to win the game

Of one size fits all.

I never try an outfit where they can see, for fear of being shamed

And perhaps, fear of being maimed

They may not laugh at me but I’ll feel awful just the same

Such an awful feeling.

My confidence, I can never tame

I am just another fat suffering dame

I feel so lame

For wanting to be one of those with smaller frames

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I Will Lose

Shed those extra weight 

Remove all self hate

Driving oneself to the distance

It takes a lot of hard work, give yourself a chance

Don’t give up now, you’ve come a long way

Show them what you’re made of now insead of waiting for someday

Sweat it out and enjoy yourself

I go on and tell this to myself

No one will do it for me

And so I go at it, in the end we shall see

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Stick Figure

as I walk the catwalk called life

all eyes fall on me and the room is at a stand still

immediately they criticize me

the way I look, the way I dress, I talk, I smile

every inch of me they scrutinize

 

but my body, my weight, is what they notice most

too big and bulky, can’t fit a size two

like an elephant of a whale or whatever it is that’s big

people immediately think negatively

 

so I starve myself to try to fit in

so I can be accepted

so all the teasing can finally stop

and finally I can be beautiful

 

and then my cheekbones peek, my hips much fit

my waistline all trimmed down

but it is still not enough, I still have to slim down

 

so I refuse to eat, deny myself of whatever food there is

have to be as thin as a stick

as what they all want me to be

 

but somehow in a state of panic

they all rush towards me

they prefer the perky girl, the one with the chubby arms

compared to this thing in front of them

who’s dying to be thin

 

I showed them who I was

and who they wanted me to be

but in the end it didn’t matter

as the figure has shattered to pieces

forever irreparable