I hardly smile for fear that the cracks will show
I pretend to laugh to hide what is disfigured inside
I look strong so as not to reveal I’m breaking
But I am
I’m tearing apart on the inside
And the cracks?
Are showing ever slowly
How did you break and why?
How did they make you cry?
How did those beautiful eyes turn blue?
Why couldn’t they truly love you?
They broke you
And here you are now
Broken but still fighting somehow
Boom! Bang! Crash!
Oh that first heartbreak!
Crashing down like an avalanche.
Hurts like being burned
Everything topsy turvy and turned
All the songs of sadness goes
It’s like the whole world knows
Crying seems to help
Hard to even stop
The pain can be too much
Yet you know someday it’ll end
And once it’s done….it is so liberating!
I thought I loved you but I never did
There is a thin line between emotions
I thought I cared for you but it was a lie
A game of chance, an alibi
I thought you were the one
I’ve placed a lot in your shoulders
But I was wrong, I was mistaken
For I thought I moved on
But still my heart is broken
I wear a fake smile
Pretend to be happy
Deep inside though
I wear this mask so people can’t see
Because I don’t want their pity
I’m miserable inside
And they will never know
But something’s got to give
Something’s got to break
I promised I will cry no more
But crying helps
A momentary paralysis of the pain
I let it all out
I let it drown me
Because I want to let go of you
I’ll continue to pretend
Only because I’ve been addicted to faking it
You see, I don’t mind pretending to be happy
Because it’s better than you seeing me cry
You prepare yourself
But when it comes
The whole world comes crashing down
I’ve been in this situation before
That hit like a train
This time around it hurt
So I let it sink in
I felt it
But for some reason, I just let it go