As much as we would like
Even if we wanted to
There is no going back to what the world was once before the chaos of this illness.
No going back to ordinarily giving someone a hug
Or a high five
Or a hand shake
Or simply standing or sitting next to someone
Distance is and will be the new norm.
There is no going back to what the world once was.
I wanted to move away from you
Forget this silliness of a crush
But then you show that gentle smile
And with a single “hi”
I go back to you like a boomerang
Let me look back and tell you of my fond memories
My memories of my childhood
When things were simple and fun despite most of it not going all too well.
Let me tell you of how the old days were
Of how there were more trees than skyscrapers
Of how fresher the air was.
I look back having remembered some of the things that happened during the war
How we hid
How we heard the bombings while huddled and hidden.
I remember my teenage years
The dances, the friends and even some of the funny stories
I remember my teachers and look back being thankful for them.
I look back hoping you’d share my excitement too
One day, you too will be looking back on your life
And I hope you remember me when you do.
I will miss you terribly
Like the sun misses the sky at night
Like the stars misses the moon each time it becomes new
Like the flowers miss the rain
I will miss you terribly
As you go along a new journey
I pray all the best for you
And I pray you will find your way back to me, like you always do
The stars, they call
Calling me back
But I cling to this world
Contented at looking up at them.
But they continue to call
Even when I constantly ignore them.
Sometimes I wonder what it would be like
To just live a carefree life
I wonder if I would ever have
The chance to have that
When everything and everyone seem to go so fast
I take a step back and breathe
And I take a moment to just breathe
The road takes me back to where I once was
But I notice slight changes
Things that used to be there, gone
Things that weren’t, appear
And as I walked further I got nearer
To where I once was
But now, I am different
It comes and it goes as it pleases
Kind of how you treat me.
The rain pours and then ceases
Like you, that disappears suddenly.
It floods the land and pours like no tommorow
And then suddenly all at once gone.
It’s kind of like you, pouring love and then sorrow
As of never ending but suddenly all done.
I try to look forward to the sun
But before I know it, the rain is back again
I’m back at the start
Going over again
Starting all over again
But that’s what it is when you’re learning
When you continue to learn
You go back to the start
Start all over and relearn
I took the long way back
The long way had a wonderful view
A sight to die for
I can’t express the beauty that I saw
Nor will I ever be able to describe it
All I know is that I enjoyed the journey
Even with some pitfalls
The road was not easy
It was next to impossible for some
Still I knew it was worth it
So I pushed on
I scraped a knee
I lost my footing
But onwards I went
The path was difficult
But it was all worth it
To see the beauty that was beyond compare
Taking the long way back was a good decision