To be fat is to be shameful
To be fat means to feel awful
This is what I learned as a child.
My family loved me, and I know they tried
Tried to protect me, but they do not know how much I cried
Because whenever I have an ounce of confidence
Society retaliates with a pound of uncertainty.
My curves became my curse and I hated myself
I felt like an unwanted book tucked away on the shelf
I hated my curves.
There are nights I’d pick myself up
Saying that I am enough and I am loved
But most nights…..most nights are awful
I lie to myself sometimes
That if I love my curves enough
Society will accept them and I will no longer need to hide