To be fat is to be shameful

To be fat means to feel awful

This is what I learned as a child.

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My family loved me, and I know they tried

Tried to protect me, but they do not know how much I cried

Because whenever I have an ounce of confidence

Society retaliates with a pound of uncertainty.

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My curves became my curse and I hated myself

I felt like an unwanted book tucked away on the shelf

I hated my curves.

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There are nights I’d pick myself up

Saying that I am enough and I am loved

But most nights…..most nights are awful

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I lie to myself sometimes

That if I love my curves enough

Society will accept them and I will no longer need to hide