Oh no! Oh me, oh my!
How could I have let this happen?
Why was I so careless?
To leave it so messed up, misshapen
I just stood there and did nothing
I watched myself slip away
I saw the signs and I knew
Still, I did nothing but stare and stay
I don’t know which way is up
I’m confused at the same time I’m sure
Nothing could be clearer and vaguer
I know this feeling is true —- pure
I don’t want to go further
But I know I can’t fight this any longer
Crazy, confusing, intoxicating
This is but a feeling
Yet I’m afraid it’s gotten stronger each day
I’m head over heels all over again
Just like before, just like now
And I can’t even begin to bargain
Logical thinking amidst stupidity of myself
And so I let it fall freely
Here I go, over the edge once more
My face undisturbed, staring through the pit…..blankly