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Falling, Fallen, Gone

Oh no! Oh me, oh my!

How could I have let this happen?

Why was I so careless?

To leave it so messed up, misshapen

I just stood there and did nothing

I watched myself slip away

I saw the signs and I knew

Still, I did nothing but stare and stay

I don’t know which way is up

I’m confused at the same time I’m sure

Nothing could be clearer and vaguer

I know this feeling is true —- pure

I don’t want to go further

But I know I can’t fight this any longer

Crazy, confusing, intoxicating

This is but a feeling

Yet I’m afraid it’s gotten stronger each day

I’m head over heels all over again

Just like before, just like now

And I can’t even begin to bargain

Logical thinking amidst stupidity of myself

And so I let it fall freely

Here I go, over the edge once more

My face undisturbed, staring through the pit…..blankly