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Looking Forward to Yesterday

when I close my eyes I see your face, it haunts me to this day

why can’t I seem to let you go?

why should I live in dismay?

I didn’t want to see you go but it seems

you didn’t want to stay

you turned your back as you said goodbye

what more could I say?

you’ve let me go when I still love you so

it’s so unbalanced; so painful

and you saying we can still be friends is not being helpful

my lips are cracked and they bleed and I’m hurt

while you are somewhere far away,

and all that’s left of you is a torn up shirt

through gritted teeth and freezing rain

I face this horrible pain

in time I know you’ll be nothing more but

part of my history

tomorrow may still be a mystery….to me

yet I can’t wait to look forward

to yesterday

(inspired by Mandy Moore’s song “Looking Forward to Looking Back”)